As Mike worked through the training on Hearing God's Voice, the Lord's words and visions that came through two-way journaling eradicated three big lies he had believed all his life.
Jesus, I sit before you this morning, so excited about this journey and yet scared at what I might face or what may come out of my heart. I am so tired of this cycle and living so small. I want to live big. I want to walk with you and know you so intimately that I will wake up a new man. I will look at the years past and be unbelievably thrilled at the newness of life, the bouncing freedom that I now walk in. This is what I see. This is what I envision for the rest of my life. As you spoke to me years ago, that my life consists of 5 chapters... and that my life will end in grace.
Lie #1 - The day I was born I was not wanted.
Father, I repent of believing and embracing the lie from the pit of hell that I was not wanted. I break agreement with that persuasion and any demon or lie connected with it. You no longer have any legal right to walk around in my thought life or in my soul. Your reign of terror is finished. I have a new King, I have a wonderful God who has proved His love to me, His child.
I now embrace Him, I now accept that I was celebrated on the very day of my birth. I am accepted. I am wanted. I am valued. I am a prince among men. I am a child of God. I am alive today because I am wanted by God, the lover of my soul. I see His wink. I bask in the wonderful reality and truth of that approving and accepting wink. I rest in the arms of Jesus as He holds my as a new baby. I take in the comfort, the reassurance and the acceptance while He holds me. I breathe it in. I deeply inhale His Spirit of Life. I look up while He holds me and look into His eyes and notice a tear falling from His eyes and that tear falls on my cheek. That one tear washes away that one lie.
I then hear a loud roar from His mouth that vibrates through my entire being, that goes deep into me and shatters the loneliness, the agreement with death and hell. I then see His smile. A smile of approval. A smile that lasts for eternity. I accept with every fibre of my being all that the roar from His mouth is declaring and breaking.
Lie #2 - I was alone, abandoned, lost.
Father, I repent of the lie that I am alone.
But why Father, did I walk alone so many times? This is coming out of my heart right now. Why was I forsaken, cast out, declared unfit? Unredeemable.
Son, all of my children at some point walked alone. Experienced betrayal. I walked that path. I experienced the same darkness. But, it was only for a short season. But I saw ahead, the joy that was set before Me. The joy of these moments of intimacy with you. Of deep to deep.
Let go of the why’s right now and bask in Me. Let go of the anger towards Me and others. Though others may have meant it for evil, I saw the days and years of joy ahead that I had planned for you. See Me, closer than a friend. I never once, not even for a split second, abandoned you. Not once, son. Believe that. Embrace that. See that. Bask and live in the reality of Me with you in those precious and dark moments.
I repent, Daddy. I let go. I let go. I breathe out the lie that I am alone and I breathe in the truth that You are with me. That I am yours and you are mine. I declare out loud that I am NOT alone. I break now, any legal agreement or authority that Satan has within me because of that lie that I held on to. I no longer hold on to it. I no longer declare it to be my friend. You are now my enemy. The very enemy of my soul.
You will no longer cripple me and stunt my growth and my understanding of Him, the one that bought me with a great price.
I now accept His sacrifice for me as the final evidence that He accepts me and loves me and that I no longer walk alone.
I now see the Lord stretching out His hand toward me as He did with Thomas... "For you" Jesus said. As I looked at His pierced hand Jesus said, "For you, son I did it for you. I stayed on that cross for you. I had you in sight. You were My joy set before Me."
As I touched His scarred hand and gazed at it, a cleansing flood went through me, washing away the deep loneliness.
I am with you, son. Let that be your claim and declaration from this day forward. Let not ever from your mouth come the words that you are alone.
Lie #3 - I am cursed. This is a big one.
Jesus said, "But NOT as big as Me. Not near as big as My sacrifice. It is nothing in comparison to what I accomplished for you. HA! Nothing. You wanna see big? Look at Me. Look and behold the Lamb of God that was slain for you. Now that is BIG.
I was cursed in your place! I was despised and rejected for you. I took upon Myself all that you deserved. That is enormous! There is nothing to compare with the greatness of my love and sacrifice for the world." He smiles at me.
Jesus smiles at me with the most warming, but reassuring smile. But in His eyes I see fire. Not a condemning fire but a burning fire of truth. One that penetrates and burns through any lie, anything that is contrary to the truth that was laid before the foundations of the earth.
That fire in His eyes has such declaration in it. In that light, nothing else stands true.
Son, look deeply into my eyes. Let my eyes declare to your soul, to that small belief that you are cursed. Without Me, everyone is cursed. But you have Me. My son, cursed? Impossible!
I let go. I fall at your feet and declare I am NOT cursed. I break out of agreement of the lie from my dad, mom, any old friend, pastor or leader that I am cursed. I repent of grasping and clinging to that lie. I repent of my own belief that I am cursed. My Jesus took all that for me. I cling to the truth that radiated and beams from His eyes, that I am His son. Washed in the blood of Jesus. I disown that lie. I am no longer the rightful owner of that cursed lie. I am free. I am His. No one of His is cursed.
I look into the eyes of my father and say, "Dad, I forgive you for cursing me. I forgive you for speaking lies over me and speaking such negative things to my face and behind my back. Your words no longer have any right or ground in me. No power over me. You are forgiven, dad, and I love you.
"Mom, I forgive you. You were supposed to nurture me and hold me and you were not able to. Not just as a baby, but even as an adult, you were so crippled and fractured. I forgive you, mom. I release you from any judgement from my heart."
I forgive myself for the many, many times of clinging and believing those lies. For speaking out loud the lies of being alone, not wanted and especially of being cursed. I repent of holding on so tightly. I let go. I forgive myself for the many bad choices I have made over the years because I believed such garbage.