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Doubt and Anger are your two most dangerous enemies.

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Really God?

Yes it’s true for everyone.

Mark normal Christianity is no threat to Doubt at all. In fact it’s the opposite. Normal Christianity keeps you in a cocoon of comfortable belief. A nice easy belief. You don’t have much call for Doubt because you seldom risk your comfortable faith by trying to hear a God who might not speak.

Yes God I know all that. It’s why I signed up for a walking talking relationship with you. But instead I have Doubt for my constant companion. I’m sick to death of his chatter. He’s got something to say at every turn.

Welcome to the club Mark.  He was constantly at me, the closer I got to God, the more he was there annoying and disrupting the relationship.

‘Next [after he was baptised and the Spirit had fallen on him in the form of a dove] Jesus was taken into the wild by the Spirit for the Test. The Devil was ready to give it.’ MATT 4:1 MSG

Read the rest of the text Mark. ‘IF you are the son of God tell these stones to become bread…’ ‘IF you are the son of God, jump off…’ DOUBT. Can you see that Mark? Then the clincher, ‘All of the kingdoms of the world are mine to give’. God told me they were going to be mine, not his, yet he wanted me to doubt that. Everything God told me, Doubt wanted me to doubt. Doubt came to tempt me, he’ll tempt you.

But God I never had this problem with normal Christianity. Back then I believed in you, but doubt wasn’t a big feature of my belief. Sometimes I doubted whether you existed, but it wasn’t very threatening and I could, over time resolve that yes, you really did exist.

Do you want to go back to normal Christianity? It’s ok if you do.

No.

Why not?

Back then I seldom heard you. Not that I could be absolutely sure of. Now you speak all the time. Back then I might have heard you speak about ten, I don’t know, maybe 20 times in my whole life. I mean the times that I can be absolutely sure of. 

It was always big stuff, getting married, choosing my career, what to do about my son who had cancer, shifting towns – I heard you those times, but not much otherwise. Now you talk more than that about where to string the electric fence in the house paddock.

Mark I spoke just as much back then, but you weren’t taught to recognise it. But that’s ok, you’re learning now, and I’ve got time.

Yes but now you talk so much I can write down what you say. Sentence after sentence. And it seems to be the same for lots of others who try it. We can write down what you say. And if we show it to others, THEY can see you in it. Yet we ourselves are often left bruised and toyed with by Doubt.

What’s that about God? I’m absolutely sick and tired of it.  He’s my CONSTANT companion. So much so that when others tell me my conversations with you are helping them I shake my head and think if only they knew. I wish sometimes there was no conversation. The conversation brings so much pain. It bruises me God, leaves me worn out. You say stuff that is wonderful to hear, but the moment you’ve said it, he shouts out the refrain. He shouts ‘you know God didn’t really say that.’

It’s getting so bad I wish you wouldn’t talk, because the moment you do, he does too.


I can’t stop talking. I have to do it to keep the universe created and in order. BUT you can stop listening if you like.

That’s the point. I can’t. Well I don’t want to. I’m betwixt and between. Now I’ve heard you speak so fluently and frequently, I’m addicted. It’s not a religious experience, it’s a selfish addiction. I couldn’t exist without it. I think I’d go insane.

So there you are. You’ve got a decision to make haven’t you. Which is worse Mark? That sliming devil Doubt trying to drive you mad, or horrible loneliness of not hearing me speak constantly?

It would be far worse not hearing your voice. So you’re saying if I want to hear you speak all day, I have to get used to Doubt?

Yes. I mentioned this the other day, the bible makes it very clear that the devil is always about trying to harass you.  ‘Beware your enemy the devil…’ The more you hear me, the more he has to harass you to try and reduce the power of my words. Without doubt, a conversation with me would make you virtually unstoppable within a matter of days. He recognises that even though you don’t. So he must be at you. For some he uses just a feeling, a feeling of being unsure, that does the trick because they are people of feeling. But for others, people of words like you, he speaks, clearly, shouts and sings and cajoles and taunts constantly. He uses the weapons most likely to work on you. He's been watching you since you were born, he knows how to hurt you.  

God I’m sick of him. I used to be scared of the devil. Now I’m so sick of him, I’d like to get my hands around his neck and knee him in the groin. He’s ruining my life.


That’s his plan. But actually it’s backfiring on him. You’re beginning to ruin his. He thinks he’s hit you with the master swipe, but the more he pushes his hand, the more the desperation, disillusionment and fear drives you into me. He hadn’t counted on that.

Mark he’s done far more than you could possibly realise to try to ruin your life. But he hasn’t seen my plans, hasn’t seen the final outcome, the end of each chapter. I’m the author, not him. And now that you’re co-writing, he’s about to be deeply disappointed.

God all that sounds lovely, but even as I wrote your words just then, he’s singing in the background, ‘you have to be joking, you know that wasn’t God’. Grrrrr! I’ve just about had him God. I mean that.

Good. And by the way, is he right? Was that me or not?

It sure sounded like you.

Exactly. Mark Doubt is no stranger to any human.

Can I just interrupt here about the capital ‘D’ for Doubt. People often correct me about that, they say it’s supposed to have a lowercase ‘d’.

They’re right. In a normal sentence it does. Doubt, when a state of mind, has a lowercase ‘d’. But when we’re talking about the sliming, filthy, disgusting, reprehensible, disruptive, pathetic, grovelling being – him – then it’s his name. Doubt.

Now back to the fact that Doubt is no stranger to any human. It doesn’t matter who you are, atheist, Buddhist, Christian, whatever – in the most important areas of your life you have Doubt. He harasses everyone. Take Edison and his light bulb. 2000 experiments required to invent something that has changed the human experience for better. Imagine your life without lightbulbs Mark?? Do you think for one moment that Edison never doubted, never tussled with that filth Doubt? The evil is busy all the time, in everyone’s lives Mark. He could see the potential that Edison had at his fingertips and wanted none of it. Enjoyment for you is pain for him. He wants your destruction at every turn, in every situation. And so he comes, to everyone.

So Edison had doubt in his secular inventing life, but in normal Christianity there isn’t much. Why is that then?

Because Edison was about to realise his potential and to change the history of man as a result. Doubt hates it when humans realise their potential. Whereas normal Christianity is no threat to him at all. It’s the opposite, it keeps you in a cocoon of comfortable belief where you seldom have to risk that belief by trying to hear a God who might not speak.

Yes but God the old comfortable Christianity was so, well, comfortable. That way was normal. This isn’t. I send what you say others and they say it changes their lives. But I’m left sitting here getting the snot beaten out of me.

Enough talk Mark. Let me ask you a question. Is this me speaking?

Yes.

So you’re sure of that?

I guess.

Is he saying anything right now?

Yes.

What’s he saying?

That it’s NOT you talking.

I think you have your answers then Mark. You know what’s going on. Doubt will always harass you. Keep listening to me. When he says ‘Yes but did God say that?’ Say ‘tell you what, let’s ask him shall we?’ And come ask me.

Ok. At the start of this you said that Doubt AND Anger are our greatest temptations. Explain please.

Mark the sins you Christians think are your worst temptations pale in comparison to the effect Doubt has on you. You need to prioritise, fight him where he’s strongest first. Then the lesser sins, the ones you think are worse, will be easier to deal with. He loves that you are all worried about the smaller temptations and ignoring the ones where he’s really damaging you.

Are you sure God? Doubt and Anger the greatest temptations.

Yes. If you doubt me, then the thing you were born for, a conversation, back and forward with me, is almost impossible to sustain. And then, doubting me, as most of you Christians do, you begin to doubt those closest to you. That’s the enemy’s game plan. If you doubt me and my love, if you relegate it to a belief, a ‘faith’, rather than a reality, you’ll begin to doubt them and their love too. When you doubt them, you hurt them. It pushes you apart.

And anger?

When you doubt me, and them, you become insular. The smallest things they do make you angry. You turn inwards and away from each other. And then relationships are destroyed. And you with them. And then he wins. The smaller temptations normally come riding in on the wings of their masters Doubt and Anger. Once Doubt and Anger have had their way with you, they hand you over to the more obvious destroyers of relationships with me and others. So look for the commanders among the enemy forces, Doubt and Anger. Hunt them down, and destroy them. Then their servants will quickly disperse.

 

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I am some who need some prayers and counseling on this topic. Since I joined the working class as a Primary School Teacher, I used to get my saraly underpaid. I tried to upgrade but I rose to the previous grade from the down grade. I went for another High School Disploma then the government reconignised me as the Certificate holder. this istituted anger and jdoudt in me.

I went for the interviews in the Pra Church Organisation which I was taken for the post of the frontline staff. I worked in that for two years until when the project phased out. I happen to join an international NGO CARE in Malawi where I am. My Salary is still reducing to the Saraly I first got on the day of Employment due to devaluation and my salary is never adjusted as I do recieve it in our Malawian Currency. Life is hard.

I have tried to go for promotion by applying for the work I used to do but to my dismay, the organisation employs the new in exprienced who depend on me to tarin them so that they can run the business according to the organisation goals and standards. My Perfomance is good and congraturated with both International advisers and Local Supervisor. I have made alot of the impact for seven years now.

My courage is destroyed and my faith has been challenged. I now see the vacancy for promotion in an organisation with desparities on how to promote people other are going on Interviews while others are promoted by nomination.

I tried to assess my achievement after this hampered me alot, I have seen that I am deterioting than before. Sometimes I feel like going for work.

Doudt and Anger retards any development

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Write your questions about your situation to God. Tell him what you're unhappy about. Ask him what you should do about it.

Then write back his answers. Don't wait to hear the answer in your mind, just start writing and trust him for the words.

For example:

YOU MIGHT WRITE YOUR QUESTION SOMETHING LIKE THIS:
'God why after all my hard work and training, am I still not recognised by the authorities? Why am I still being paid such a low salary?

THEN YOU SET UP THE START OF GOD'S ANSWER SOMETHING LIKE THIS:
'(your name)' what I am saying to you about the fact that you're not recognised by the authorities, and are paid such a low salary is....(and then write down the words that come as you write).

It takes practise. But God wants to speak to each and every one of us direct. No man knows what God wants to say to you, not the fullness and depth of it, but God does. He wants to speak with you direct.

1 JOHN 2:27
'As for you the anointing you received from him remains in you and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about ALL things, and as that anointing is real and not counterfeit - just as it has taught you, remain in him.'

It takes practise and effort to hear God's voice. It's easier to ask someone else to do it for you. But if you keep at it, you will hear him. And when Doubt comes, tell him to go.

You will often find you're unsure. When that happens, ask God if what you think is him, is really him, and then write down his answer as it comes.

Mark Holloway

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