Sometimes we might wonder what Jesus' priorities are. If He has a day planner, what would be on it? What is His agenda for the week, and what does He most want to do?
I love the journaling and visions from Diane below that help answer some of these questions and give us a glimpse into divine daytimers and schedules of the Spirit. Diane is one of our CLU students completing the Communion with God course and writes, "I am so excited at what God is doing I can barely contain it!"
Her first assignment confirmed that intimacy is the desire of God's heart. Indeed, the most important ministry we have is not for Jesus, but to Him. Watch and see how the Lord playfully and patiently woos His beloved daughter and brings her ever closer to His heart.
Jesus, the ocean, and the "to-do" list
The most remarkable thing that happened to me after watching 4 Keys to Hearing God’s Voice was this picture of Jesus, seated on a boulder on the beach and beckoning me to come over and sit next to Him. His eyes twinkled and sparkled and I was mesmerized by them. He kept calling me over to sit next to Him and I heard Him within me say “Come and sit here. Come, listen to the music in My creation. Listen to the music in the waves”.
I didn’t know what to do. You would think I would run over and sit next to Him. What a glorious opportunity. Instead, my mind was racing about what I had to do. I have to “produce” and I had so many questions to ask Him. I was almost cross with Him for asking me to just sit next to Him and relax and rest. Didn’t He know I had goals to meet and I had it down on paper as to when I need to achieve what? Every time I attempted to ask Him one of my "high-performance" questions, all He did was smile, wave His hand and ask me to come and sit next to Him.
Well, I thought, I don’t have time for this. I value time more than money. (I am recognizing a hidden idol that time has mastery over me). I am not going to sit around and waste my time watching the ocean. This happened for days and kept happening until I reluctantly went over and sat next to Him, all the time thinking what a waste of time. He should know I have so much to do! And I am doing it for Him (another idol popping up – ministry).
Not that book...
Just yesterday He mentioned to me very gently that He would like me to meditate on the Song of Solomon. This is a book I conveniently skipped over as too much intimacy and it didn’t enrich my mind in any way. I sometimes wondered why it was even included in the Bible. It’s good for people who like poetry, I thought.
I began to be uncomfortable about being “opened up” and could see the walls I had built up over the years coming down. I accused Him of trying to make me vulnerable so I could get hurt. He smiled and said “I love you”. This was too deep for me. Of course I knew in my head that He loved me. I would tell myself that, I read that and knew that and people even told me that. But to actually HEAR HIM SAY IT really threw me. I felt awkward and didn’t know how to respond. I just looked at Him and said nothing and He just kept smiling. We were becoming lovers and this was a new experience to me in over twenty years.
I wished He would answer my list of questions but He seemed to be in no hurry. Our relationship is still “sitting next to each other” looking at the ocean, not much words between us except words of love I have never heard from Him before like “You are precious to me, I will never let you down, I will be with you always, I will carry you, why are you sorrowful, I am here for you.”
We have progressed to the point where I am actually saying “Can we meet again tonight, the same way, just You and me?” and His response always is “I’ll be waiting.”