Do you live a life of regret, looking back and wishing you had made different choices at key points in your life? Do not be discouraged. This is not appropriate behavior for a believer, and you may not be as far from my will for you as you imagine.
My faithful followers went through long periods of preparation when there was seemingly no progress yet this too was a part of my plan all along. If you are obedient to me now then you are in center of my will for you now. Do not live in regret. You cannot change your past, but I can work with it to accomplish the future plans that I have for you.